But, no other choice.

I'll have to take the TOEFL test in order to earn a better future. How do I wish there's no heaven and country... That's not hard to say, but hard to do.

I'm tired. I'm tired of everything. WHAT AM I DOING ON EARTH? Am I going to pass a exam? Or am I going to the United States? But WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY????? Okay, I may get the ticket to ride, but them what? Just like Mr Newman in the movie Click? Hm, at last he became CEO, but he lost more. Lost his wife, lost his healthy, and more importantly, his OWN LIFE. What am I talking about? I don't wanna be another Mr Newman or another Mr Zhang.

Do I need a comfortable life? Obviously not. I wanna more challenge, only by that could I get more achievement. But, just as the word "archive" in the word "achievement", that is ARCHIVED, and almost of no use to anyone including me.

What am I fighting for? I don't know. I'm in a chaos, and I don't even know what to do next...

You may say I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one